Learning To Breathe

Eating Out with Friends

It's been a long time that the wengurlzz didn't eating out sekali ramai2 (more than @ = 5 adelah dikire ramai2 ye). Eating out isn't about the food - it's a social occasion for me and I will go out with friends to any restaurant, any time, anywhere, just for the socializing. If eating out were just about eating out, I wouldn't eat out at all. But since it's a social thing in my circle, I'll eat whatever I can find at whatever place I'm at and focus the attentions to the social aspect of it instead.

I had a great time on dinner smalam n today's lunch. Eat, drink and be merry! Good conversation and good company...an excellent way to spend my 'hasel' day! Dinner smalam kat Teluk Batik, g ngn apid, fira, sha & zura. amat la byk mkn, sume skali RM 150++, we were the last group of customers leaving hehe

Lunch ari nih ngn aleen, diha, fira, sha & zura at KFC, ptg time letrik kat utp xde selame sejam. Tadik kuar kul 3++, balik kul 5++ then siap g Rahmath utk memborong 2 shower gel (skang dh ade 4! suke) & top up yg tepakse dibeli sblm kreditku expired. Abes licin makan snack plate sambil disulami cite2 hot & lawak2 bess :) amat excited sampai ade skali tuh kitoang gelak extra kuat satu floor pon tekejut, zura pon ade accidentally tebaling straw hahaha fira ngn aku suke buat aksi tangan membayangkan jeng jeng jeng, ari ni sha agak byk ckp terutame di dlm kete (tp aku & fira suke je dengar), aleen & diha ('diha dh x single' - ini hanye rekaan) rupenye dah membayangkan aksi2 for our batch dinner next weekend. sume suke berangan :p... itulah kami

Luv u girls muahh mwuahss
I am looking forward to our next makan2 gathering!
Harap next time cukup korum

If

If I wasn’t true to myself, I’d be lying to everyone.
If I'm wrong, prove it.
If I didn’t stand up for myself, nobody else would stand up for me.
If I have a strong opinion about something that affects me personally, I will be blunt and speak or write about it.
If I am blunt, it doesn't mean I'm a bitch.
If I never found you, some part of me would still be lost.
If I haven't been a good enough for you, I'm sorry.
If you could make my toes curl I would probably love you forever.
If I had to choose between being someone's toy on the shelf or nothing at all -- I would choose nothing at all.
If we had it to do over again – Could we?
If we were together again, would you still lie?
If I could take away your pain, I would.
If I didn’t know you, I wouldn’t really know myself.
If you're miserable, how can you stay?
If you stay, how can I respect you?
If I wasn’t a romantic fool, I would be able to forget him.
If you’re going to accuse me of something, make sure you have proof.
If I belonged to you, would I still belong to myself?
If it brings you more pain than pleasure, let me go. Life is too short.
If I live to be 100, I will never forget you.

::   ::   ::

No matter how much I love, miss, and care for someone, if they have hurt or disappointed me more than they’ve made me happy then it’s time to let go. Right now, my heart can’t always comprehend what the mind logically knows. Sesape yg terase, padan muke ye, huhuhu... padan muke sume org temasuk aku huuuuu~

mari menjwb soklan2

1. Are you currently mad at someone?
Nope

2. Which of your friends has the worst temper?
sume ade temper, not sure sape yg worst

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
pnah je tp lupe

4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?
x jd merah tp jadi burok aa

5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream?
i prefer to yell and scream supaye leh lpas abes settlekan sume kat situ gak

ORANGE: MISC

1. Has anyone ever thrown you a suprise party?
yes. year 2002 kut. thanks zura & other wengurlz yg terlibat =)

2. Are you easily excited?
kadang2

3. What event is coming up that your most excited
about?
xde la most excited about tp ade batch dinner this early May

4. Which of your friends is most exciteable?
zura sbb ari tu die amat excited tunggu baju dinner siap hahaha suke

5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought?
buy houses for me, my parents, adik2... renovate/decorate lawa2
ade duit lebih simpan wat blanje hari2 mendatang

6. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
a time machine!

YELLOW: Personal Questions

1. Name?
diyana rasid

2. Do you like your name?
suke je

3. Whats your main goal in life?
rase bahagie that come from my heart

4. Do you want to have children?
nak

5. How do you want to die?
in peace laa

GREEN: Opinions

1. Sex before marriage?
No.saye nk bg hadiah utk suami

2. Gay Marriage?
personally, x approve

3. Lowering the drinking age?
ade otak pikir sendiri

4. Abortion?
kesian janin tu

5. Recycling?
sokong!

BLUE: dreams

1. What was your latest dream?
i don't remember much.. dlm kete then singgah satu umah..huhh?

2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most?
tah

3. Have any of your (sleeping) dreams come true?
xde kut

4. Do you usually remember your dreams?
ingat kjap je then lupe

5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had?
lupe dh

PURPLE: love Questions

1. Do you have a crush?
rite now only celebrity crushes: yutaka takenouchi & jason wade lifehouse - dr form 4 sampai skang, shane west, brandon flowers the killers aahh~

2. Who is the best hugger that you know?
my best hugger

3. Do you believe in Love at first sight?
owh yess

4. Have you ever been in love?
absofuckinglutely

Love & Time

jumpe kat blog sape tah, this is quite a meaningful story la i tell u...

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love. Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment. When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder, Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

p/s: nape color-picker friendster nih tak berfungsi dr ari tu? abes sume font aku tak berkaler huhhh

nk.melawa.utk.sape.ni???

i keep asking myself this question sejak smalam..haih rase xde tujuan nak melawa (xpepasal agak down aa ngeh2).. and this topic leads to interesting discussion :p as i open the subject to my friends.. hahaha some of the girlz already have their targets jeng jeng jeng provided now most of wengurlzz already got their dinner outfit ready.. aww gile glam sekor2 =) sukeesukii

yesterday, went out with zura n fira to ipoh (again! sbb the day before pon kuar gak).. kuar 'kjap je' ek.. kunun, sudah la, pegi 4 tempat (Kitly, Ipoh Parade, Greentown & JJ Kinta City) pabendaa haih, but we did have a great time and byk duitku jua turut terbang melayang ~ fly fly ~ ~ (oh i also met my daniel...aah)

another amusing point, aku belajar pasal 'ikan' - ade ikan bilis, ikan kembung, ikan buntal, ikan emas, ikan bandaraya... huhu damnn rupenye aku lom beli joran lagik damn, not sure whether i'm in the mood to go for fishing skarang ni tp the idea cam bess :) .. but i definitely don't want any ikan bandaraya in my catch wuuhuuu, x gitu kawan2? ah-haaa

What about those women who want to take care of themselves out of self love and not attach their self-worth to how many men find them attractive? How 'bout "I did it for me", only? I’m all for health and fitness and looking and feeling good but this really struck me as odd. Why not feel good about oneself so that one won’t be dependent on food, men, women, drugs, sex, exercise in order feel be complete? Sometimes, it seemed that once its raining men in your life you can feel good about yourself. Why not heal the part of oneself that wants to use food to find comfort? Why not replace food with another addiction-- men or women? Byknye bende2 tah ape2 yg aku pikir

What do you think?

La la la lagha!

1) What did you eat today?
In the morning, nasi lemak (thanks sha!) & soy milk
Afternoon-till evening, chocs & mushroom soup
Evening, kuih apam 8 bijik RM 1 (thanks again sha!) & susu Anlene

2) If you are given a chance, where would you like to study?
London

3) And why is that so?
so I can buy Glamour magazine every month without missing the freebies (beli kat Malaysia xpat pon, rugi je)

4) How are you feeling now?
sleepy and a bit sad kut then i feel numb

5) When was the last time you cried?
today huhu

6) Who is on your mind
byk la plak bile dh tanye camni

7) Are you a sensitive person?
yes

8) Do you wanna get married?
absofuckinglutely - - nak Deliah!

9) Describe love
somehow i can't describe it rite now

10) What will you do after this?
complete my assignment

11) Where will you be after exam?
relakerz jap after exam maybe kat umah

12) Are you happy with your life?
not really

13) Last topic you studied?
Business Cyber Law on company, partnership bla bla bla

14) Latest facial wash you are using?
ZA Essential Liquid Wash

15) handphone brand?
Nokia

16) Honeymoon spot?
Bora Bora Island... em Malaysia nyer pulau2 pon okes je :)

17) Waiting for a miracle to happen?
yep

18) What are you wearing now?
baju tido

19) Feeling homesick?
not really

20) Last person you kissed?
cam x sure em lame sgt x menunjukkan kasih sayang ke

21) Do you believe in God?
yes

22) Song that is playing in your mind?
Stickwitu by pussycat dolls sbb winamp sha kuar lagu tu just now

23) favourite subject in school?
history terutame form 4 nyer

24) do you hate anyone?
mild hate, yes. really2 hate, no one.

25) last person you talked to on the phone?
my father

26) favourite ice cream flavour?
strawberry

27) say something about yourself
i am me

28) say something to the guy/gal you like
don't stop showing me love *sigh

I'm a Carrie! Absofuckinglutely

Wahh waa aku membazir mase wat byk2 quiz (I mean a LOT lot lot) kat blogthings…tapi nak letak satu yg satu nih: http://ynr.blogthings.com/whichsexandthecityvixenareyouquiz/

Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?

                                                 

Yeyy! I’m a Carrie… I luv Carrie =) She is the most fashion-forward of all the Sex and the City girls; Carrie's style defies all categorization. Rummage through Carrie's closet and you'll find haute couture pieces side by side with vintage frocks, downtown club wear and miles of Manolo Blahnik stilettos. Great girls by her side.. Miranda, Charlotte and Samantha. Mwuahs mwuahs!

Tapi her love life is such a mess... susah sgt sgt, it will never be simple, erkk xnk jd cam die. Although, akhirnye Mr. Big finally admit that she’s the one.

“It took me a really long time to get here,” says Big. “But I’m here. Carrie, you’re the one.” Lamenye tungguuu laki ni… dr series’ premiere season 1 until finale season 6 aihh. Of all her paramours over the past few years, no one has captured and frustrated Carrie’s heart as much as Mr. Big. Their sexual chemistry was undeniable, as was the fact that Big would never fully commit to Carrie. His unpredictable behavior and passion constantly stirs the drama-seeking soul of our Carrie *sigh…Bodo punye laki (Carrie pon same bodo) tapi antara byk2, walopun Aidan agak bess, Mr. Big gak yg paling bess *sigh *sigh yeah, after all I am a Carrie…

Carrie Bradshaw Quotes:

“I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. And I don't think that love is here in this expensive suite in this lovely hotel in Paris.”

“Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they're supposed to run wild until they find someone -- just as wild -- to run with.”

“I'm homeless! I'll be a bag lady! A Fendi bag lady, but a bag lady!!”

“When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”

Carrie: Have you?
Mr. Big: Have I what?
Carrie: Ever been in love.
Mr. Big: Absofuckinglutely.

Byk lg quotes yg leh ltak, rase cam nk tgk rerun series ni lagik :p. Sex and the City is a must-see! I don’t really mind about the sex scenes… open up ur mind, what u really really need to look at are the way life can be unpredictable & friends are precious.

I am still...

I am still the girl you knew when she was only 15.
You knew me as that 'petite late girl',
girl who used to come 30 minutes late to math tuition class,
always wearing baju kurung, with no clue who the hell r u
while ur friends keep yelling ur name every time I entered the room.

                           

Exactly 7 years later, i'm still petite, always late to class...
but not always wearing baju kurung anymore, and boy, I wish I could know u better over these years.

I'm independent, yes, but I'm also dependent.
I like to rest against a passenger seat headrest,
and close my eyes and soak in that momentary bliss of peace.
I'm assertive, yes, but I also want you to assert your rights.
I want to be asked, not initiate movements to be asked,
I want to really say no, not pretend to say no and then smile so that you'll beg me to say yes again.

I'm obviously happy that you understand, I've been looking around so long for someone who would understand…
and then when I finally decided to stop looking because it was such a pain to keep on hoping,
you just appeared, and you learnt, you knew.
I'm glad to be given the space to be both dependent and independent at the same time, and I'm blessed that you know just when to allow me both.

I'm still that dreamer, I do believe in love at first sight,
and watching too many romantic movies make me still full of hopes.

I still write things in diary, although not as often as before,
as we grow older experience makes us wiser and more frequently melancholic;
but I write happy things more than sad things.

I still plan to say things like this, and then end up saying other things at odd angles…
and usually, still, I won't even know what I'm saying when I'm done saying things.

I'm more in touch with being honest now, and I've learnt to not take everything into my pocket and store them there for too long.
Things decay, and nothing ever lasts forever… but I'm still the one who keeps the treasures for as long as possible,
and keep them in check so that they look pretty for as long as possible.

I blindly want to be yours truly, and then when I really think about it, there's no need to want for anything.
Though, i never admit my serious deep love to u and i keep trying to deny it bcoz I'm so afraid of our future together.
(by the way, u will never know coz u will never reach this blog huhu)
Out of all people in this world, i don't want u to be the man that will break my heart, rite now...just stay where u are.
I rather learn to love someone else, put my hopes and dreams on another man, until recently I can't love no more.
I let my heart crushed to the floor and i'm picking up the pieces all around.
(err, one does reach this blog, in fact, he knows me more than u do)
Now, i'm alone and this is the punishment i force myself to take.
Pain is part of learning who you are.

One fine day, when the time is right, I will start to love again.
Maybe next time I will not allow any bit of the past to come and trespass on what my present enjoys...
and next time I will try not to put high expectations in a relationship or I'll end up like this once again.
aahhh we'll see...whatever will be will be...

DiYaNa, your true color is RED!

dah lame x update blog, huhu layann je nih, ini adelah berpunce dr adee 'x-mandie' azlan punye email, layan punye layan, outputnye kate "DiYaNa, your true color is RED!"

Your color is red,

the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

huhuhu xpnah tau plak, tapi bile dibace balik memang kene...i trust my heart more than i trust my head... somewhere along the way we lost our heads..yepp, i did (and still do?)