Learning To Breathe

Wild At Heart

He's on my mind today. I wouldn’t seek to tame him. Impetuous Prince who always leaves me wanting more.

When he smiles, each line on his face tells a story and I’ve memorized them all. Laughter. Character. Wisdom. Pride. I’ve traced them with the fine tipped marker of my perception and stowed them away for safe keeping in the photographic chasm of my mind. I find his wrinkles sexy, because they belong to him. Because they are earned.

There is something sad about him. Sullen. Muted. Solitary. Confined. Something that’s wild and longing to break free. Something I see that reminds me of myself. Something that makes me want to touch him in places that nobody else can, because I get it. It would be easy to hate him for giving me a taste and not offering more. But I don’t.

Because somehow knowing him, has made me more free. Because he woke me up inside just when I needed it most. Because I write better knowing he is out there in the world. Because you can’t tie down a wild heart, only hope that someday you might be able to run free with one just as wild as you.

* Where is my wild Prince? Let's break free together! =p *

I’m FREE! (sort of)

Yeayy! I’m finally finished a uni bachelor degree =) I had my last exam + the dreaded FYP presentation, and now I’m all done. I think overall I did rather well on most of my stuff. I didn't study really hard for the exam (i've lost my passion for study few years ago), but that shouldn’t be too bad. hehe why worry. It’s all done with now. I don’t have to do it again for 9 whole semesters (4 years 6 months).

Now I need a job. Anyone wanna pay me money to do something for them? =S job..ohh i'll be at klcc next Thursday for my very first job interview, hoping to get my very first job... my interview session will be at 3 p.m. layakkah aku menjadik tenaga kerja petronas? heshh, cuaks gak, we'll see.

I'm still not sure when i'll be back home for good. Lom readykan plan nak tinggalkan UTP nih. Maybe alang2 balik g interview nih, balik je terus. Maybe gak lpas abes anta hardbound FYP report kat SV (aku suke je jumpe SVku Ms Mazlina Mehat). Kene packing barang nanti. Jap jap leks abeskan satu2 dulu, nanti pikir balik.

I'm starting to have more "free time" again.
Maybe I can find the time to put some things here now.
Wouldn’t that be nice?

Simple Things in Life

It's been a while since my last update uh huh... I'm currently busy with the coming FYP presentation this Friday (16/06/2006) .. dah la smalam ade mock presentation with SVku hoho

Though, I've been to places a lot last week hehehe (buat2 terlupe FYP).. ingat nak update blog pasal Jaja's birthday celebration, weekend trip to Alor Setar (to meet my ol' friends) and the BBQ event.. malas sbnarnye huhu =P

Pictures say thousand words, so go figure them out urself:

Thursday's nite - Fri 09/06/2006 (midnite - 4.30 a.m):

Hey, it's Jaja's Nite! Wengurls (yesss =), a complete 10 of us) went to Ipoh to watch midnight movie 'The Omen'. Then, headed to Nasmir for supper + celebration. Lastly, the gifts-giving ceremony back at UTP until 4.30 a.m ++. I slept at around 6.30 a.m.

Friday 09/06/2006 (10 a.m) - Sunday 11/06/2006 (11.30 a.m):

weekend trip with Zura (Zura, thanks temankn aku!), drive g Aloq Staq berbekalkan tido 2 jam, habatt tol, dalam gambar mate aku sepet bakk. Stayed over at Nana's house for 3 days 2 nights, terime kasih byk2 Nana! Nana is one of my bestfriends at Sultanah Asma's back in the ol' school years. Bejalan sakan kitoang =). Met up with some other old friends (Aida + Imi + Anis  )... what can I say emm I always love Alor Setar.. love the place, people and memories...

Sunday 11/06/2006 (8 p.m ++):

BBQ with the remaining Floyderzz and several other boys (geng Sarawak). The venue is tepi Village 5, UTP. In the menus are lambs, chickens and potatoes. Belasah je sume...

Please think about this:

Do not underestimate the power of doing simple things in life --- they might just be the reason why you have a special place in someone else's heart

till we meet again y'all!

A Lazy Post

the finals finally over yeayy! tinggal presentation FYP je utk grad dpt degree huhuhh. Last paper was on 31/05/06 2.30-5.30pm, Wireless Communications (IT students). The moment is captured, sempat lagi tuh =p..in the circle are shasha, apid, fina and me. Picture was taken by Noran sbb tuh die xde dlm gambar.

for the past couple of days gantikan sume tido yg tak cukup ari tu and seriously my body knows how to heal itself hahaha =) 12++ hours of half dead half sleeping in suspended animation. I wait for the time when I will be whole again.

This is a lazy post..so here it goes:

1. Song playing at the moment?
The All American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret

2. Have a special someone?
no..not 100% ready yet

3. Do you think you're ok?
ok

4. Ever donated blood?
niat tu ade, unfortunately i'm still underweight huhu

5. Favorite color(s)
lilac, white, green, maroon, bronze

6. Accessories you usually wear?
necklace + ring

7. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past?
walopun tak berkaitan sgt tapi suke Peterpan - Kukatakan Dengan Indah

8. Last place you went to?
kitchen..gi basuh sudu

9. Last person you went out with?
my ex, thanks blanje mkn, mmg tgh sengkek

10. The most exciting sport?
hahaha depends on who's playing

11. Ever had a baby?
no

12. Movies you want to watch?
Match Point, The Break-up, Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest, The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift vroomm vrrooommmm

13. Any piercings?
no.. i don't plan to have any

14.The most romantic gift(s)?
the memories...

15. Acted on stage before?
yes..zaman kanak2 ribena

16. Struck by lightning before?
never..mintak jauh

17. Danced with your loved one before?
nope...but it's on my to-do list, waiting for the rite place+time

18. Ever wished you could turn back time?
sometimes...i just wanna observe my life over and over gain

19. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself in bed with a stranger from the opposite sex?
there must be some explanation about it

20. One song that's meaningful to you?
mandy moore & jonathan foreman - someday we'll know

21. Last person you met for the first time?
can't remember laa

22. What will you be doing tomorrow?
same things i guess..don't have any specific plan

23. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
ever since i was a little girl!

24. One thing you totally regret doing/done?
not a thing =)

25. Do people like you?
i hope so

26. What was the last game you played on the
computer?
The Sims

27. Someone who means a lot to you at the moment?
people who taught me how to love

28. The color of your mobile phone?
silver blue

29. Do you hate someone at the moment?
nope

30. What do you wish to happen now?
a long meaningful conversation

31. Last time you ate pizza?
at pizza hut ipoh but i don't remember exactly when

32. Ever been given a ring?
yes

33. Do people think you're weird?
some say i'm weird..(hopefully in a good way)

34. Movies now showing that you hate?
waaa muvi time summer sume best2 laa

35. Most important thing in your room?
@home - my box
@utp - my PC

36. Last movie watched?
Alexandria...muvi indon, last nite at zura's room

37. Last television show watched?
Melodi Tv3 cite hot

38. Who is the person you want to see right now?
my dad...to beg him for cashhh $$$ oh bapak, anakmu sengkek bakk

39. Ever called a person useless?
(useless = 'tak gune punye org' + 'hampeh') secare marah/lawak-nye slalu sgt

40. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
not really