Learning To Breathe

Self-(Reflecting+Indulging) Weekend

With so much going on in my life lately… it’s about time to step back, get a fresh perspective and make some issues less personal, but a lasting solution has to make sense to the heart as well as the head. After all, in this fast-paced world, we don’t have a lot of free time for ourselves, do we?

A weekend of connections. In-touched with some long-distance friends through small talks and jokes, eventually discussion on important issues became natural:

♠ Alan and I laughed about my usual irrational PMS syndrome, we went on “Ahaaa no wonder no wonder...” as I’ve been that ridiculous-annoying-cranky-me for the last couple of days. We are close to mark our 1^st year of friendship and he wonderfully survived all my hideous temperament. What a kewl dude.

♠ Talked, moaned, and judged on the subject of almost-everything with Zura. She ‘accompanied’ me driving home from McD, unpacking my things, and also supper! Talking with her made me feel better and curious about the endless possibilities of our future.

♠ In capital letters, Radin strictly demanded for a snail-mailed Hari Raya card. The way he came out with it was so hilarious hahaha. He even bluntly refused on my idea of an e-card. OK, OK, I’ll make that effort. But he better come back to

Malaysia

next year. C’mon man, two years seem too long. Bukannye bess sgt pon duduk Germany tu lame2.

♠ SMS-ing with my ol’ gal Baytie. She’s currently continuing study. It’s been quite some time since we last met.

♠ Emailing with my kaki-hot-stor partner back on Uni days, sape lagi kalo bukan Kak cKien kite hehe. Missed the chance to ‘catch’ her on my trip to UTP Convo last month.

♠ Disclosed chronicles with Mizi and he actually gave intuitive opinions. Yeah, he can be a serious person too, once in a blue moon =P.

♠ Sha called as I’m driving to office. Updated Sha with what’s hot and what’s new. She said her ‘phone-ignorance’ syndrome is back once again haihh…

Blew up few hundreds $$$ in less than an hour last Saturday (Just so classically me!). Bought an Armani Mania EDP Pour Femme and a Dior Addict Ultra-Shine2 Sheer Lipstick. Plus, a new bag. And my stomach must be very happy because I provided excessive lavishness of foods and drinks =). Girls! I totally recommend Dior range for the lippies. I’m into its packaging and shiny sheer colors, it smells nice too. I’m the kind of nothing-too-obvious with lips, being more dramatic with eyes instead.

*sob*sob* mrCarlos is no longer in Kuantan, his project finally came to an end…Hmm reality kicks in – now let’s see how we touch the base with each other… (yepp I’ll be missing him)

Joint Account (a metaphorical idiom)

An account with two owners is identified as joint account – each owner shares in the ownership of the account and either party has the authority to make withdrawals. I just opened a new 'joint account' at a 'bank' that I’m not familiar with. Unexpectedly, I have the guts to willingly try again. Who’s the other owner of the account? Emm well, 360°, he is something. Like chalk and cheese. Fascinating. I let the mix of emotions crawl gradually around me.

I started off with enthusiasm and with goals to grow this account into a healthy, strong one that will give a happy prospect. The thing is that most people open their relationship account with eagerness like this, only to get lazy and procrastinate over time, leading their relationship onto an unhealthy path. People often believe that if they are comfortable in their relationship, then everything is okay and/or will work itself out. Being comfortable, however, does not always mean your relationship is healthy. Like everything else I wish to succeed in, it requires effort and investments.

How is the current health status of my relationship account?

I have only one word – CRAZY. Below is the estimation graph. Would mrCarlos agree with me on this? I just don’t know… and I’m happy anyway :)

Selamat berpuasa to all! Thank you for all the Ramadhan wishes. I even received one from once-welcome-now-unwelcome person, you-know-who (regular readers would know who). My initial reaction was ‘Bodo-bodo-bodo’ and immediately put away the phone. Hohhh marahnye saye, wtf, how dare he send me the SMS (even if tujuannye baik sempena bulan Ramadhan). I’m sticking with my vow that he’ll never hear from me ever again! Hell yes; I can be really stubborn and unforgiving when I choose to be. Blacklist record count = 2. Tiade maaf zahir batin bagimu. Biar padan muke masing2. (This sounds so ugly & bitchy)

Tagged

I’ve been tagged by Sha (http://elmoreign.blogspot.com) and I don’t even know much about this tagging thingy, now let me just tag along with the idea…

5 things found in my bag

♣ Purse: an obvious need

♣ Mobile Phones: 2 Nokia-s

♣ Lippy stuff: Revlon Lipgloss & Dior Lipstick

♣ Tissue: hv 2 packets in my bag right now, it is importanto Mario!

♣ Pen: Rarely used, but hey u’ll never know when it comes in handy

…There are actually many surprising bits and pieces in my bag that I won’t tell

5 things found in my purse

♣ MyKad

♣ Driving License

♣ Ca$h

♣ ATM Cards

♣ Membership/Business Cards

…Seriously, no more than that, mine is non-sentimental – no photos, no sweet little cards at all

5 favorite things in my room

♣ My beauty corner: beauty products, perfumes, accessories etc.

♣ IKEA Lamps: a romantic standing lamp and a red bed lamp

♣ Different sizes of pillows on my bed

♣ A Tupperware full of Oreo biscuits, yummy!

♣ My private box: a pure treasure…maybe one day I'll burn or bury it

5 things I’ve always wanted to do

♣ Go for a true proper holiday with only one reason - to just chill and unwind

♣ Attend a Lifehouse gig

♣ Dancing in the moonlight on the beach

♣ Buy a house that I can call my home

♣ Build a happy family of my own

5 things I’m currently into

♣ (bluek!) work – CIP Project

♣ Discovering mrCarlos

♣ Friends + Family – exchanging updates, issues, hot stories

♣ Rerun of ‘Sex and The City’ episodes

♣ Oreo biscuits

5 people I’m going to tag

♣ Zura

♣ Jaja

♣ Ayuni

♣ Shahreen-myBalokHomie

♣ Fira (a reason to start ur own blog now, c’mon!)

Too Much Too Fast

The trip to UTP was super supreme fun! Together with the girls, rocking day n nite, pretty wild in a nice way hehe (* there’s a story to tell…jeng jeng jeng *). Congrats to Aleen n Diha for their official graduation. Unfortunately I didn’t take much pics.

Back to the topic…

The society views “moving too fast” to be a bad thing in a relationship. Perhaps this is generally based on some valid reasons. But this doesn’t apply to every case because I find it’s easier to push people away than to let them in, and I think taking this ‘push’ path leads to emptiness eventually. Well, sometimes you can end up in a relationship like in the movies, and when you do, there’s nothing wrong with being impatient and going too fast. I hardly get the ‘it’ feeling, so now, for this one worthy chance, I’m not holding back - - it will determine whether it really is like in the movies or not. I think a passionate relationship, even if short-lived, is worth the pain.

"It takes two to tango"

At the end of the day, it’s up to both people to decide what kind of a relationship they both want and how they go about it can be in a way that serves both of their interests.