Closer

The plan didn’t go my way at all. So I assumed that the night can be so far from romantic. I was not prepared. I even remember feeling very drained that night.

As we were getting ready to sleep, he showed me a pamphlet, the house layout that he’s planning to buy in near future. Overall, it seems really nice. I envy him for that. Together we went through the layout for a while…stated my preference for the kitchen, his plan about the front guest room being a TV room instead, I don’t like the shared bathroom between the rooms upstairs - he said it can simply be renovated, telling me that the kitchen is big, automatic gate, built-ins…etc. It was undeniably soothing to talk about that stuff with him somehow. I also want to buy a house someday (big affordability issue here). Importantly, I want to ‘make’ a house to be a home.

We talked a little more on other stuff. He started shutting his eyes but still talking. I stared at him - thinking to myself that I want to love him more, that I sincerely love him at this instant, despite the uncertainty of us being together for long term. Subsequently I continued with our conversation. He responded “What are you still babbling on? Stop babbling, go to sleep la yang”. (Lerr pulak, huhh, menyampah~) I pouted; pulled up the blanket, and shut my eyes. Then he asked “Why sleep distantly? Come closer”. I shifted a bit closer and he grabbed me abruptly with his single arm. zZzZzz. We slept till his alarm rang in the morning…

Well, maybe that can be considered as an effortless r-o-m-a-n-t-i-c-o