“I Used To Be the Sweetest Girl Ever”
Trust me on the above statement, it’s a plain truth. Felt like the time to ‘let go’ has finally come. I’ve made peace with him - I called him last night. Wewww I gave up my own vow just like that. Just so you know, I actually waited, to think hard and long enough (6 months to be exact) before I make the call.
We talked comfortably as if nothing happened between us. I guess that’s always how we are with each other and I don’t know why and I just don’t fucking care anymore. A rather witty part was when he asked why I didn’t reply his sms-es and his call (eleh mcm laa byk sgt effort die, poyo, his call was merely like a miss-call je pon, ego!). I denied at first. He asked again, I answered with a question “Should I?” Perhaps he didn’t satisfy with my previous answers and asked me the same question again. I frankly said to him “I just didn’t want to at that time”. He muttered something right after, I can’t hear it, and he refused to tell. We laughed together and silently accepting our whole situation – our past and present.
9 years and counting again…Both of us are adults now. I think I want to keep him eternally in my ‘circle’, but at a distance - far enough so that I’ll never hate him. I understand now that pain is part of learning who we are. Let’s keep moving forward everybody! Burn to the sky, higher and higher…Baby can you play with fire?
oiiit ko cakap pasal orang yang mane satu ni????
Posted by: PeAcEmAkEr | January 23, 2008 05:28 PM
it doesn't matter anymore bro'. i'm on a new page already =)
Posted by: DiYaNa | January 24, 2008 08:49 AM
take me with u dear...apparently i'm still stucked in the same ol' story =(
Posted by: diha | January 24, 2008 07:40 PM
rajin gila hg wat blog..haha!
Posted by: h o s i a n g | January 26, 2008 02:08 AM