Learning To Breathe

Come Back!

Too much drama around me for the past week. You want grief, you got it. You want dilemma, you got it. You want diva, yeah you got it. But, I’m just a diminutive supporting actress in most of them. I felt numb at times when I was on set. And one thing for sure, numbness will eventually annoy me. Here I picked the top significant chronicles, in which I played bigger roles:

۞        His mother is dying; the cancer strikes back, attacking the brain. She has 3-6 months to live. I cried on the phone, imagining myself in his situation. He said he’s helpless; he’s losing the core of his world. I will be with him through this hard time; I give surety of my support and compassion. But what I couldn’t understand is that why he’s rushing other things during this critical point. Ww..Whh..What? I think he should focus on one big thing at a time. Anyway, he’s big enough and even smart enough to decide. Let’s pray the best for him and his family. mrSongs’s back to Brunei today. Hold on and come back.

۞        Finally it ends - the cold war between mrFoot and me. I told him “Your way of thinking: you’re being too practical, too plain, too boring… Let me add wings on you, so you could fly”. He countered “Your thinking is messy. Don’t think beyond common boundaries, stick to the ground. Just think on basic.” He uses the word ‘messy’ which is just so wrong. But I don’t want to bicker much longer and replied - “Well, just take me the way I am...the way we are.” He called me this morning from the LCCT boarding area, he’s heading to Sabah. The call woke me up. His first line was ‘bucukkk..’ (I get that from him sometimes), I know it’s stupid but it feels so damn good at the same time. Come back, come back soon.

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And I had to remain here. I’ll be here. So come back.

Handle Me

To ponder upon:

Your eyes vision might be acceptably OK, but what about your heart? There is more to vision than just the optic nerve, you know. Sight is as much a question of perspective as anything else. What feed your heart? So people, I urge you guys to take some time today to think about what you want in life. And go get 'em.

My weekend:

Friday – Sadly, the '27 Dresses' is not in Kuantan GSC show list anymore. So Ayuni, Dhuha and I were set to watch 'The Forbidden Kingdom' instead. A dude managed to get the tickets for us. Off the cuff, Anis also joined us for the evening, Aidil was ‘forced’ to join us too huhu. After dropped Dhuha at her house, Ayuni took me to McD drivethru, my stomach need something before I sleep that night.

Saturday – I went on a date with the dude who managed to get us the tickets last night. He came (again) from Kerteh and picked me up around 2++ pm. Overall it was (lunch-date) + (mall-date) + (movie-date) + (beach-date) = lovely. He sent me home around 1 am, and then headed back to Kerteh because he’s working on Sunday. I picked the word “lovely” because since I started working I hardly get that kind of one-day date anymore you see. This time I got a combo date... kewwlll (Thanks! if you are reading this)

Sunday – Cleaned up my room as well as the bathroom after lunch & TV. As Ayuni and I are about to go to hair salon, mrFoot rang me for minum petang session. We joined him and his friends for a while, and then we hit Megamall. Yeah, both me and Ayuni had our hair rebonded. I know I know…I had this straight style for too long already; I’m also getting bored of it. But curl just need to wait yaa…blum sampai seru lagi. mrFoot visited me twice on my hair session before his ‘Congkak’ movie starts. We’ve been in a cold war for more than a week now; he’s having his cold-feet, well I’m showing him how cold I can be too. Huhh. Maybe warmth was crashing down on in last night, but rather slow for my liking. He’s on TV tonight at 12am; a delayed telecast; look for a 'bastard' no. 23. I do intend to take that awful word back, but I’m just pissed off. Sorry.

So you think you can handle me?

P/S - Condolences to Zura on her Cisco. =( Also worried about mrSongs’s mom – he’s coming back to M'sia early than his schedule.

...whatever~

Hurmm my busy time is here once again - a project @ work. Talking about me in my current life, I'm being a selfish person because others are being selfish too. Also, I can conclude that people always want things that they can't have, and then tend to take things for granted, as human we can't help it, can we ?

Here's a lazy one, a survey:

1. What's the connection between you and the last person who called you?
~ an international call, we can share our dreamworlds.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
~ pnah but lama dah tak buat.

3. What happened at 9pm last night?
~ i woke up from my nap.

4. When did you last cry?
~ a week ago.

5. What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
~ hot waffle cake, the peanut butter will melt. Y-U-M-M-Y

6. What do you want in your life right now?
~ more holidays please.

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
~ redah aje.

8. Do you wear Crocs?
~ no, probably never.

9. What do you smell like?
~ musky sweet.

10. What's your favorite Gatorade flavor?
~ none.

11. Whats your favorite thing to have on your bed?
~ pillows.

12.What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
~ (too personal)

13. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
~ yes, naturally. waheyy others too!

14. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
~ nope.

15. What was the last movie you went to see?
~ err lupe.

16. Do you have Justin Timberlake music on your iPod?
~ dont have an iPod.

17. Do you live near your exboyfriend/girlfriend?
~ no.

18. Can you sleep in jeans?
~ can.

19. Are you a cuddler?
~ yea, hush-hush cuddler.

20. Have you ever been given an engagement ring?
~ not yet.

21. Where were you on July 4th, 2007?
~ dont remember.

22.What does the last text message you received say?
~ awk esk kjt 645 k.

23.What did you reply?
~ (a good night wish)

24. Who was the last person you were in a car with who is under 20?
~ hmm maybe a gf of mrFoot's best fren. She'll hit 20 kut this year.

25. What is the last thing someone bought you?
~ a cute windmill figure, Ayuni bought on her Holland trip.

26. When was the last time you saw number 3 on your top friends?
~ last weekend @ Alamanda Putrajaya.

27. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
~ there's possibility.

28. Do you trust people easily?
~ sometimes intuitively.

29. Do you say "dowh"?
~ hardly.

30. What are you proud of?
~ saye blum bankrupt lagi despite of my spending habit.

31. Have you ever dated someone named Adam?
~ no or should i say 'not yet'.

32. Who was last to cook for you?
~ my mum.

33. When you sleep do you dream about sex?
~ i don't.

34. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R"
~ radin.

35. Do you care what others think about you?
~ to people who are close to me, i do.

36. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
~ i really like to think so.

37. Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again?
~ oh! yes. my mum.

38.What do you look forward to in the next 2 months?
start seeing the ending of current project @ work.

39. who was the last person you called?
mrFoot, to return the missed calls.

40. Who was the last missed call?
mrFoot, twice.

A Puzzled Girl & An Eligible Bachelor

First, let me talk about a girl. I think you must have heard this on news. Last couple of days, I read from Dhuha’s blog and today I read about her again in the The Star newspaper. She’s Sufiah Yusof. Once a child math prodigy, she entered Oxford at age 13, now a £130-an-hour hooker! Emm I’m questioning…how would you actually rate a person’s intelligence? How smart a person is? Book-smart? Street-smart? Life is complex to explain huhh, makes me wonder…

            Read more here: Sufiah Yusof

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Today I had my dinner at Secret Recipe. Here I introduce my camera-shy friend, mrFoot, but he’s not shy at all ye, die sukesuki je kenekan aku all the time. I’ve been burning holes on his pocket quite a lot lately; I do feel a bit guilty about that. I must say that one thing worth to drool on this dude is those packs underneath his shirt, you just have to touch ‘em, you might never guess on first look but try to feel the abs with your hands. Shhh seriously it’s tempting… thankfully he doesn't know about my blog and this shameless post. Wth.